An Open Letter of the Biggest Lie Sean Tells Himself.
Don't forget that you are worthless. No one really wants you in their life except if they can use you for something. You are just meant to be used your whole life until you die. Which people only hope you don't die if they stand to get something from you, once that is over they could care less. No one cares about you. You don't have any friends. No one likes you. Happiness is not something anyone wants you to have but they will use you for their purposes. Crying only makes them happy (in that your pain brings them joy). Give up. It's not worth it. Because you have no worth. No value. Just give up. You aren’t worth it.
You are a constant failure and disappointment to all who know you. You are a drain on all who know you. You are a needy manipulative jerk who thrives off of making the people around you miserable. No one has ever wanted to stay friends with you for that reason. People can’t wait to get rid of you and move on with their amazing lives. If the relational reciprocation starts to go in both directions or, God forbid, in your direction for a while because it’s over (the irony being that reciprocation implies a flow in both directions). Your use is to be used. But you have been broken for so long that people soon find that your use is limited and short lived, leaving them unwilling to pour back into you.
There is no reason for you even to be writing this because no one cares. No one will read this and if they do they will smile at your despair. They will lapp it up; tasting your delicious pain. That is your use. To make people feel better about themselves when they see how pathetic you are.
Why do you keep on? The best way to to end the cycle is to stop completely. It is okay to give up. It’s time.