What Happens When Your Decisions Are Bigger Than Your God?
People have been trying to make decisions as long as we have been around. Should I eat these berries that I have never seen before? Who would ever decide to grind up coffee beans and make a bitter drink out of it (the myth is that a shepherd saw goats getting hopped up after eating the beans)? Should we go to war with another group of people? Should I go to college? Should I take that job?
I have a really hard time making decisions. If I am trying to decide what to eat and i can’t figure it out, I’ll decide not to eat rather than pick something that I might regret later. Every decision seems so big to me (especially at this point in my life where decisions really are starting to be very significant, but even the small ones seem big), making it really difficult for me to make up my mind.
We have turned to divination in various ways like the reading of livers, trusted our hearts, our gut, and logic, yet people still make the wrong discussions even when they are sure they are doing the right thing. We cast lots and flip coins leaving the decision up to chance all in an effort to alleviate the weight of making the right decision.
I personally don’t think we can totally depend on one method of decision making since each one leans a different way and if you only decide one way things will be out of balance. Being too logical or too emotional causes problems, but I’m not sure if balancing the two fixes everything either. Christians pray for answers, yet it seems that people either don’t like the answer they get and do what they want anyway or don't get an answer at all. So how do we make decisions?
When it comes down to it, I think we make the right decisions by knowing God. Not just by asking God for step by step decisions but by knowing God so closely that our actions and decisions flow out of our relationship with Him and knowing what honors Him and what His will is. I think that much of my inability to make decisions comes out of my lack of knowing God and my inability to trust Him. I’ve made my decisions bigger than God and when I do that I am easily overwhelmed.